Hello guys, it's been a while and there are still plenty of commissions I've not done, I feel like I'm almost over it and now taking more and more steps, I was stuck in depression for a while [2-3 years] and still regaining my health, I found it incredibly hard to do normal things and every day seemed repetitive and dull, I hadn't noticed it...the depression at the start, but I realised as my thoughts had become more and more negative as I felt myself slipping, I disliked people, I stayed recluse, only going to catch the bus to school and back, I'd spend my days in the art classes where I felt rather safe, anxiety would hit me constantly, I was afraid of peoples opinions towards me and so I became a ghost of the year, I eventually dropped the pencil and paper down and began playing games, constantly my grades disappearing before my eyes let alone knowledge of who I was, I completely blocked everything out, my parents did not hesitate to turn a blind eye to it but instead treated me like I were a demon, I played league of legends every day of my life, seeing that it was a way to escape, it distracted my mind, but when I stopped playing it for a second, BAM, it'd hit me again, all these thoughts all these negative thoughts would hit me, I started thinking a lot more and more and more, until I was nothing but a shell with thoughts, I tried, and I tried to wake myself up, I went through phases where I tried to help myself, it felt like my mind were splitting into two, two people fighting constantly, bickering the space around my tight and unpromising, my room would make me feel heavy but at the same time relieved and relaxed, it was the feel of laziness and lack of motivation.
Anyways! now that I'm coming back to my senses I'm finally up and ready to do some work!! I'm in year 12 this year so it is pretty stressful, I've also learnt heaps about drawing in this time I've spent away so I'm up and ready to surprise you all! To be honest the reason why I didn't do many of the commissions is because I was scared of all your opinions and thoughts on my work, but I've realised heaps and I've matured through this experience! I'm ready to come back and show you guys what I've got and what I have installed for the future!!
Also I've just finishing "usagi drop" and "Tasogare Otome x Amnesia"
both anime shows I high recommend if you're a sucker for ANIME SHOWS WITH FEELS and romance! usagi drop 8/10 Tasogare Otome x Amnesia 8.5/10! woot woot!
for all those who have requested commissions please post them on this journal entry, I'll be doing one for each week, so hurry up and get posting!! I'll also be doing them by order of post so if you want yours to be done before anyone elses then HURRY!!! ^_^